Things that pregnancy has given me:
The fine art of slow. I move much slower. I often feel like I'm wading through water. And I love it. I physically can't move any faster if I tried and it forces me to pause more often, to think slower. I spend a lot more time sitting still, consciously breathing. Gradually slowing the momentum of my thoughts or the momentum of my activity, so I begin to take captive my thoughts and set new intentions. It's such a gift, especially for someone like me who is easily swept up into projects and errands until days whiz by.
A more intimate relationship to food. Pregnancy has been a catalyst to eat with even more intention. If I eat too quickly at this point in pregnancy, I get too full and cause heartburn and discomfort. I am required to eat slower, to chew, to taste. During my first trimester I never knew from day to day what might be acceptable to my stomach, and so I just waited. I could pretty much count on crackers and Pellegrino as staples, but otherwise, I just waited to see. The patience and awareness of my body's response to food has been very valuable.
Surrender. The deeper into the pregnancy I am, the more surrender is involved. Surrendering my illusion of control and gaining a deeper intimacy with God, surrendering my body to the process of growing my family, surrendering my will to the act of patience, surrendering my agenda to beauty of the unknown. How much we gain through surrender.
Courage. Not to power through, as I usually do, but the courage to rest in God's real freedom. To let things take a course they need to take. To be expectant of God to do great things in this season, despite or even because of discomfort.
Dependence. Why do we value "independence" above so many things? I think dependence is beautiful. Dependence on God for strength, for peace, for joy. I have also found a new dependence on my relationship with my husband. He likes to say that pregnancy is such good husband training - it teaches you how to serve your wife in a new way that preps you for parenthood. I like that. On my side, I have had to learn how to need things that I can't provide for myself. This may not be hard for some of you but, sister, it sure is hard for me! But it has been a beautiful release, totally worthwhile.
Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insightor understanding.In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. ~Proverbs 3
What has pregnancy taught you? What new value have you found through your pregnancy? What new insight?